Medications
Posted: Tue Aug 31, 2021 8:23 pm
Tector made a statement the other day about stopping meds. He was not far off. I stopped taking meds about 6 months ago maybe more. I was taking for ptsd. Believe it or not most of it was from from the horrible things I was hands on as both a firefighter and Paramedic. Not the military. I just got tired of taking them once a day.
As a firefighter I did not have to spend to much time with victims/patients. But once I became a paramedic everything changed. I lost count in the number of times I'd been covered in blood, skin and many other horrible things...to the point that sometimes I could not eat for a few days. No meat anyways. I'd get sick to my stomach. Did not happen alot, but it happened.
I'd go 3 months or so where I could not grill anything. I could not eat ribs and certain other foods.
But I loved my job alot. I loved helping people. But could not save them all. You cannot imagine what we've seen. LEOs also.
Long story short. I became extremely, agitated, violent and easy to set off, depressed, isolation. Could not sleep but maybe 3 hours or so. I did not want to do anything or be around anyone. But my temper was what woke me up. It was bad and got to the point of being dangerous and suicidal.
Fortunately I was able to realize this and went back on a newer med 3 weeks ago. I sleep all night long now. I'm alot calmer, heck I don't get upset really about anything. I'll get agitated but can control my reaction now. I slipped up the other day with tector and caught it and felt really bad about.
But man the difference is night and day. I feel so much better as time goes by. What's funny a MOD here asked me about this, thank you.
My point is if your experiencing any of the things I've described. See your doctor it can make a world of difference in your life. I'd be lying also if I said USA/world events has not played some role in it too. These LEFT WING SOCIALIST EXTREMISTS DICTATORS are attempting to do to our great nation. There is no drug to stop my feelings about that. It angers and disgusts me. But I'm capable of controlling that anger now. That set me off quicker than anything when I was off the medication.
But anyways I want to just talk about it. That's all
As a firefighter I did not have to spend to much time with victims/patients. But once I became a paramedic everything changed. I lost count in the number of times I'd been covered in blood, skin and many other horrible things...to the point that sometimes I could not eat for a few days. No meat anyways. I'd get sick to my stomach. Did not happen alot, but it happened.
I'd go 3 months or so where I could not grill anything. I could not eat ribs and certain other foods.
But I loved my job alot. I loved helping people. But could not save them all. You cannot imagine what we've seen. LEOs also.
Long story short. I became extremely, agitated, violent and easy to set off, depressed, isolation. Could not sleep but maybe 3 hours or so. I did not want to do anything or be around anyone. But my temper was what woke me up. It was bad and got to the point of being dangerous and suicidal.
Fortunately I was able to realize this and went back on a newer med 3 weeks ago. I sleep all night long now. I'm alot calmer, heck I don't get upset really about anything. I'll get agitated but can control my reaction now. I slipped up the other day with tector and caught it and felt really bad about.
But man the difference is night and day. I feel so much better as time goes by. What's funny a MOD here asked me about this, thank you.
My point is if your experiencing any of the things I've described. See your doctor it can make a world of difference in your life. I'd be lying also if I said USA/world events has not played some role in it too. These LEFT WING SOCIALIST EXTREMISTS DICTATORS are attempting to do to our great nation. There is no drug to stop my feelings about that. It angers and disgusts me. But I'm capable of controlling that anger now. That set me off quicker than anything when I was off the medication.
But anyways I want to just talk about it. That's all
