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Tector made a statement the other day about stopping meds. He was not far off. I stopped taking meds about 6 months ago maybe more. I was taking for ptsd. Believe it or not most of it was from from the horrible things I was hands on as both a firefighter and Paramedic. Not the military. I just got tired of taking them once a day.

As a firefighter I did not have to spend to much time with victims/patients. But once I became a paramedic everything changed. I lost count in the number of times I'd been covered in blood, skin and many other horrible things...to the point that sometimes I could not eat for a few days. No meat anyways. I'd get sick to my stomach. Did not happen alot, but it happened.
I'd go 3 months or so where I could not grill anything. I could not eat ribs and certain other foods.

But I loved my job alot. I loved helping people. But could not save them all. You cannot imagine what we've seen. LEOs also.

Long story short. I became extremely, agitated, violent and easy to set off, depressed, isolation. Could not sleep but maybe 3 hours or so. I did not want to do anything or be around anyone. But my temper was what woke me up. It was bad and got to the point of being dangerous and suicidal.

Fortunately I was able to realize this and went back on a newer med 3 weeks ago. I sleep all night long now. I'm alot calmer, heck I don't get upset really about anything. I'll get agitated but can control my reaction now. I slipped up the other day with tector and caught it and felt really bad about.

But man the difference is night and day. I feel so much better as time goes by. What's funny a MOD here asked me about this, thank you.

My point is if your experiencing any of the things I've described. See your doctor it can make a world of difference in your life. I'd be lying also if I said USA/world events has not played some role in it too. These LEFT WING SOCIALIST EXTREMISTS DICTATORS are attempting to do to our great nation. There is no drug to stop my feelings about that. It angers and disgusts me. But I'm capable of controlling that anger now. That set me off quicker than anything when I was off the medication.

But anyways I want to just talk about it. That's all :D
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Post by mavrik »

Thanks for your service, I don’t know how you and LEO’S do it. I’ve know several over the years almost all are “regular” men and women that endure cruel situations at times. Mav
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If of you ever need to just talk feel free to reach out. I am still active with the local fire and rescue. I also have seen things and experienced scenes that are hard to get through. Notice I did not say forget, I don't think that ever happens. It is a difficult job but I have found it helpful to keep the good outcomes in memory. Easier to say than do but you know what I mean I am sure.

Pm me if you would like my contact info.
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~~~you're welcome and if ya wanna talk,call.
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Godspeed to you, sir. If I say something stupid to you on this subject in the future, let me know.

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Post by Firemedic2000 »

No you said nothing wrong at all.

I feel alot better and feeling better everyday. You know it's like you take something and start thinking you don't need this stuff. So you stop. You do not even realize what's happening. It takes one of those oops moments to open your eyes.

I'd gotten very bad and was getting worst. Bad dreams what little I did sleep. It gets cumulative from lack of sleep, anger, depression, and violent thoughts ect.....you stop caring for everyone. But the anger woke me up. I never hurt anyone but I did lash out. I was afraid I might hurt someone though. That was the eye opener.

But all better now. Relaxed sleep all night. No bad dreams. Don't get mad, but do get irritated. But that's normal under the circumstances. But the difference is night and day.

I still do not like DEMOCRATS though, they do not make a pill for that :lol:
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Sounds like you have to come down here with us and we go hit a few strip clubs, first round on me and Tector pays for the lap dances…


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Captain Steinbrenner wrote: Wed Sep 01, 2021 7:55 pm Sounds like you have to come down here with us and we go hit a few strip clubs, first round on me and Tector pays for the lap dances


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Hell yeah, be there in an hour :lol:
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